Has it really been three years since I’ve last posted? Actually, thinking on the events that has occurred in my life since my last post, it is actually pretty easy to believe that three years have passed. I feel it’s awkward to just jump back on here and start posting about food again after such a long break without saying a little something as to why I haven’t posted. Two major events happened which caused me to take a hiatus with blogging, one was the passing of my dog and two was the birth of my daughter.
My dog- It feels silly to say this since I actually have a baby now, but I really considered my dog my baby. My husband and I rescued her when we first moved away to keep me company in a new city. She was a huge part of our lives. She moved from apartment to apartment, city to city with us. She was the only one to be physically present in the moments as my husband and I went from dating to engaged to married. She was loving and spunky and was the joy of our lives, especially the joy of my life when my husband was often gone for work. The events that lead up to the night we had to say goodbye to her (aside from my actual labor) were the most stressful days of my life. I’ve been fortunate so far in that I’ve never had to deal with the lost of an actual human loved one and I dread the day when I will have to deal with it, but up to this point, losing my dog was the first time I felt the actual heart ache of loss. I was physically and emotionally down for a good amount of time. The things that usually bought me joy just didn’t seem to matter anymore…i.e cooking and blogging, and so I decided to take a break from writing.
My daughter- A little more than a year later my husband’s career had us move again and we decided this new city was a good place to start a family. I did some research beforehand and read that it can sometimes take up to 6 months to be successful in conceiving. I mean it sounded like the stars had to align in order for an egg to become fertilized, so we decided we should start trying, thinking it wouldn’t happen right away….well, it did not take us 6 months, I got pregnant immediately. We had just moved to a new city, I just landed a pretty good job, but now I had to re-evaluate what direction I wanted my life to take, stay-at-home mom or continue to work? I always envisioned that when I had a baby I would stay at home and raise my child, but the thought of having a career was also appealing to me. It took me a while but I had to really think about what made me happy and what I saw my life as, and I decided to be a stay-at-home mom (at least for now).
It’s been quite an adventure adjusting to motherhood. For 10 years it’s just been my husband and me, and suddenly we were sharing it with this little baby. We had to learn how to adjust from a life of two people, a life of complete freedom and plenty of free time, to a life that now involved lots of crying, feeding, sleep deprivation, and figuring out this tiny human that we brought into the world.
She’s now almost 10 months and I still can’t believe I’m a mom and this lively, curious little baby girl is mine and I especially can’t believe she’ll be 1 year old in a few months!
I feel my life is settling back down and I want to go back to what I have enjoyed doing and that is food, cooking, and writing about it. Some days (actually most days) it is hard for me to cook a meal while caring for a baby, let alone take pictures and write about it, but now I want and hope I can get back in the kitchen and do the thing I love again.
By the way, my small patio backyard is now an even smaller balcony, but I’m making it work …at least for some herbs, but that’s better than nothing I guess 🙂